new body

Can I get you anything else? A new body...I wish I could give her that. I wish I could do something to ease her pain. Anything. But I can't. I'd give anything to be able to. And when she asks for that so seriously, no hint of joking in her face. Not in her eyes...because they are closed. Too heavy to even hold open. And she asks for water...she takes a long time drinking it. I thought that would mean she was actually doing better and holding it down. Usually she can only drink a few sips...but then she gives it back to me. It looks as if she drank two drops. How can a person survive on that. Drops of water and the miniscule amount of boost that stays in her stomach after she throws it up even after putting it through the feeding tube. I just don't get it. But it should be uphill from here right? Right......